This is an EOL document for James Ernest Conrad updated 05/10/2025 — (Inform) Please make sure my family Patrick Cusher (918-808-5150) & Cassie Jae Woods-Howell are made aware of this EOL document. This is not a will. A hand written copy can be found in my safe. Patrick has a key.
(Comment) These are my last request, words, and feelings. At the point of writing this, I’m not under the influence of anything and is typed in advance of my passing. In fact, the 1st draft was Jan 3rd 2015 and latest May 10th, 2025.
(Directives) These are my requests I hope to entrust Patrick and Cassie to execute as they are the keepers of my life insurance policy with State Farm.
(Requests) Please follow these regardless what you feel is right. This is easy right? I’m requesting I be cremated, no Obituaries, no services. I understand there legally has to be a death notice published. Please use least amount of information to the public.
I wish to join my mom and Domino in cremation ashes to be included with the remaining of my mothers and Domino and in their entirely spread at Grand Lake Dustin Stone this is for you.
All of my passwords will be encrypted and available for Patrick in the shared Dropbox. Password is the greatest kitten that you lost in 2000.
There are good reasons given for the act I’ve chosen or has chosen me. . I’d like the public and my family to know a few things that have been the troubles I have carried day in and day out.
(The List)
In version dated May 10th, 2025 this was removed because I’ve grown past petty.
(Apologies) Sorry Pat, Cassie I’ve failed you both again.
To everyone that was there for me Schroeder, Dustin, Darin, Amanda, Brenda, Sadiqa, Stacia, Alan, Dee, Stephanie C-B, Stephanie S., Dan, Tori (Stevie) and those hero’s without capes. I’m sorry, you tried. I tried but being smothered by life sucks. To those that have forgotten about me and written me off your welcome you no longer have to ignore my calls or my texts. I should be quiet now per your wishes.
(Now) A few people believed in me way greater than I can myself. Where this paragraph has changed. The house is paid off and only owe “some” taxes. Even when Covid hit people like Patrick had my back and I spent no less than 2 weeks without worrying where my next meal or insurance would come from Patrick is more than a Cousin but brother.
Depending on your religious beliefs I may hugging my mom while domino and spot fight for who gets 1st skritches. OR I’ll be burning forever in hell. I think hell is more inviting than life at the moment given current administration of the United States.
Most don’t add a P.S. Who’s going to stop me because I can.
Alan Crone, James Aydelott, Steve Schroeder, Dustin Stone, Darin Hall. You are a perfect father figure and what I try to copy in my life. You care about those around you and those not in front of your face. Many of these great men have wonderful women to lift them up and keep them going except for James.. I think Robyn has the leash on that relationship. Great strong woman in my life have also been Diane Hinson, Maggie Lovall, Stephanie Baker, Ellen Thomas are some of the few. I will forget some and some I may have omitted because “our little secret”.
Abby Baker, keep your mom on point and know that you weren’t my kid but I’d have protected you as mine even as you are closing in on 18years. Keep trying new things even after you get old and fat. You can cook when you can’t act. And thanks for not pushing me into the shark tank, and enjoying Cirqe. You’re going to go so far.
Cassie & Brenda are the sisters I never had. Without you I’d not know how to properly treat a woman in the past and now the present. You have never met each-other but I’m sure you two would get along just fine.
Patrick, my cousin by blood but brother by heart. I hate to add this to your plate but I can’t keep up as I near 50. I love you.
Any additional or leftover monies from my estate or that’s merged from Linda Conrad’s please put a 10K donation to Animal Aid of Tulsa in my name. Get my name written of a few bags of cat food please sharpies and Petco are acceptable. Patrick will be the ending benefactor and keep my ideas alive.
Ask I type the final thoughts I hope I haven’t forgotten anyone. I like to say “don’t you forget about me” but if this is public and I’m not breathing any longer then you may now forget about me and live your lives with the passion and strength I no longer have.
Much Love.. -jc
(Comment) These are my last request, words, and feelings. At the point of writing this, I’m not under the influence of anything and is typed in advance of my passing. In fact, the 1st draft was Jan 3rd 2015 and latest May 10th, 2025.
(Directives) These are my requests I hope to entrust Patrick and Cassie to execute as they are the keepers of my life insurance policy with State Farm.
(Requests) Please follow these regardless what you feel is right. This is easy right? I’m requesting I be cremated, no Obituaries, no services. I understand there legally has to be a death notice published. Please use least amount of information to the public.
I wish to join my mom and Domino in cremation ashes to be included with the remaining of my mothers and Domino and in their entirely spread at Grand Lake Dustin Stone this is for you.
All of my passwords will be encrypted and available for Patrick in the shared Dropbox. Password is the greatest kitten that you lost in 2000.
There are good reasons given for the act I’ve chosen or has chosen me. . I’d like the public and my family to know a few things that have been the troubles I have carried day in and day out.
(The List)
In version dated May 10th, 2025 this was removed because I’ve grown past petty.
(Apologies) Sorry Pat, Cassie I’ve failed you both again.
To everyone that was there for me Schroeder, Dustin, Darin, Amanda, Brenda, Sadiqa, Stacia, Alan, Dee, Stephanie C-B, Stephanie S., Dan, Tori (Stevie) and those hero’s without capes. I’m sorry, you tried. I tried but being smothered by life sucks. To those that have forgotten about me and written me off your welcome you no longer have to ignore my calls or my texts. I should be quiet now per your wishes.
(Now) A few people believed in me way greater than I can myself. Where this paragraph has changed. The house is paid off and only owe “some” taxes. Even when Covid hit people like Patrick had my back and I spent no less than 2 weeks without worrying where my next meal or insurance would come from Patrick is more than a Cousin but brother.
Depending on your religious beliefs I may hugging my mom while domino and spot fight for who gets 1st skritches. OR I’ll be burning forever in hell. I think hell is more inviting than life at the moment given current administration of the United States.
Most don’t add a P.S. Who’s going to stop me because I can.
Alan Crone, James Aydelott, Steve Schroeder, Dustin Stone, Darin Hall. You are a perfect father figure and what I try to copy in my life. You care about those around you and those not in front of your face. Many of these great men have wonderful women to lift them up and keep them going except for James.. I think Robyn has the leash on that relationship. Great strong woman in my life have also been Diane Hinson, Maggie Lovall, Stephanie Baker, Ellen Thomas are some of the few. I will forget some and some I may have omitted because “our little secret”.
Abby Baker, keep your mom on point and know that you weren’t my kid but I’d have protected you as mine even as you are closing in on 18years. Keep trying new things even after you get old and fat. You can cook when you can’t act. And thanks for not pushing me into the shark tank, and enjoying Cirqe. You’re going to go so far.
Cassie & Brenda are the sisters I never had. Without you I’d not know how to properly treat a woman in the past and now the present. You have never met each-other but I’m sure you two would get along just fine.
Patrick, my cousin by blood but brother by heart. I hate to add this to your plate but I can’t keep up as I near 50. I love you.
Any additional or leftover monies from my estate or that’s merged from Linda Conrad’s please put a 10K donation to Animal Aid of Tulsa in my name. Get my name written of a few bags of cat food please sharpies and Petco are acceptable. Patrick will be the ending benefactor and keep my ideas alive.
Ask I type the final thoughts I hope I haven’t forgotten anyone. I like to say “don’t you forget about me” but if this is public and I’m not breathing any longer then you may now forget about me and live your lives with the passion and strength I no longer have.
Much Love.. -jc
EOL 05/10/2025





