This morning I gave mom’s Urn a hug and a silent prayer as I go back to bed. Lots of people offered for me to join their happy families but I’m not happy and it’s not going to rub off. I declined all offers except one where I am going to attempt to have breakfast […]

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All I wanted was a way to forget my mom isn’t here this year and I wanted to work every shift. It seems my boss doesn’t like the idea and has placed me OFF WORK from the only safe place I know for the entire weekend. This may be the end fokes. Nail in the […]

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I need a couple of these.

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From FB: Today I realized I have a parachute above me and each of the components are my true friends. Without it, you drop to your death. However using each friend allows you to land safely no matter how turbulent things are.. Random JC wisdom.. I’ve yet to stop my free fall.. Screaming where nobody […]

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So here’s how this works.. I’m a pretty damn good magician with medications.. When I take a risky dose I post.. Will this kill me, just make me over sleep.. Let’s see what the doctor ordered. 100mg Doxipin 1000mg Tylenol 40mg Propanal 2mg Halcyon 30mg remeron 4mg kolonipin 1mg xannax 100mg monodox Go team…

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Today I am without a mother or father. I have no living grandparents nor do I have any siblings or children of my own. I’m alone.

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I kid, If you know me then you know I’m the master of much and the keeper of many secrets. I however am vocal in my opinion and not afraid to wear my heart on my sleeve. Do I post things that could be read wrong or taken as an act rather than a thought? […]

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They are giving mom a less than 50% chance of survival of next surgery. I think my risk of survival is a lot lower than hers. This stress is killing me from the inside. I’m thankful for friends who have offered to be there for me and they haven’t failed me. I’m failing them for […]

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Not trying to kill self but doubling up on sleep meds since ones taken 4 hours ago haven’t done shit so in 6hrs 5mg of halcion

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Happy mothers day to all. I’m laying here not eaten since Friday morning if you excuse the fries I had on the road to the Thunder game. Spent yesterday in hibernation except for a server crashing when I was going to attend my yearly Drillers game. Been awake since 2a and have read about every […]

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