Monday, July 26, the 207th day of 2010. There are 158 days left in the year.

Today I sent a note to web girl advising her that I’m going to be to busy to date while I’m doing the integration with our new systems and I’m not going to be able to give adequate time to anyone I’m dating. In other words I’m putting work in 2nd place and moving relationships into the 4 or 5th slot. The girl was sweet which also makes me want to move her along because she had a interesting side. I had a busy day today. Left work and headed to the orthodontist for an emergency apt to fix a poking wire. I then ran to Fox23 to drop of Katy some Emmy nominations. I went to see a movie called “Knight & Day” and it was terrible and I want my $4 back. I did something I’ve not done recently and got a pretzel from the concession stand. I’ve done 12 movies in a few weeks. I think I’m going to hold off on watching anymore until Friday where I’ll so see the Charlie St. Cloud movie. I got home from the movie and watched about 4 episodes of HawthoRNe. I spent about 45 min showering and flossing my damn teeth take 30min themselves.

Today I woke up at 10am.. Decided not to goto the other church. Went back to bed. Woke up at noon and had pizza. Went back to bed. Woke up about 6 and had a slice of pizza. Went back to bed. 2am Woke up for work.

Today I woke up about 10:00 and had to pick my mother up about 10:30 to take her to Claremore to drop off a food order because her car has very little A/C and it was over 95 degrees. Now mind you I normally don’t carry passengers or carry drinks outside my cupholder. I took mom up and while we were leaving Claremore she spilled her tea on my seat.. MY VIRGIN SEATS! Nothing has been spilled on them and they are near perfect. Or were neat perfect. I ripped her a new asshole before I could calm down and think. I’m sure when i was a kid I spilled stuff in her cars etc but I’ve fought hard to not have anything spilled in my car. I took the turnpike home so I could let losse some stress and get over 80mph w/o worrying about a ticket like I would on route 66. I was suprised how close Claremore was and now I can go chill and hang out with Cassie at City Hall. The rest of the day I sat around watching TiVo. Watched Burn Notice, HawthoRNn, and a show I can’t think of the name of to save my life. I have a new book by Dave Berry I downloaded and have been reading. I went to church about 7 and stopped by Walmart after church and did some shopping. It seems everyone shops on Saturday nights. I got home with the windows down and the sunroof open. It was WONDERFUL outside. Hit the sack about 10:30

So Today I worked my shift and ended up leaving about 11:10 to make a 11:30 movie and made it in time for the movie with pre-trailers running when I got in the theater w/o anything to drink. The bad thing is my mouth dried out and my braces were rubbing and ripped out the skin on my lower right cheek next to my canine on the left side. OUCH! I stayed up watching TV and went to bed around 10.

Today is Wednesday, July 21, the 202nd day of 2010. There are 163 days left in the year.

Today started with me running 5minutes late. I hit BK and got the same thing I got yesterday and headed to work. This morning was doing good but busy. I got off work and was planning on going to my church to help out with the new stage design and was told they would be working on it in the morning. I showed up about 11 and there was not a single person there. I had driven 35 miles to get there and back. I thought about catching a movie but decided that I needed to go home and work on some training materials. I got home and started watching Big Brother live feeds and messing with my servers. I started the training only to be bored out of my mind while doing it. I know the basics of the system because I’ve used their older products before. I forgot to eat lunch or dinner and had a nice visit at 5:30ish from a Candidate for District House. I asked him my standard questions about his work history and if he embraces social media and he disappointed me with his answer. I thanked him for dragging me out of my house in 102 degrees and sent him on his way. I had a hard time getting in the door because my hands were so sweaty that I couldn’t turn the knob. I went to bed about 6:30. Oh yea.. on the mood note.. I’ve not really gotten out of the funk and its a different mood each day.
The internet dating chick is moving to town when she was living about 50miles away and wants to go out and date etc. when she moves back up here. I am pretty she she just wants a shag and I’m not so sure I want to shag her.

Today is Tuesday, July 20, the 201st day of 2010. There are 164 days left in the year

Well today was a change of a med that I suspect is the culprit and I can’t count my chickens yet. Today I started with BK and a great breakfast followed by a semi-stressful day at work and planning on the week ahead. I have a LONG rest of the week ahead of me. I got off and decided to call Dee and see if she wanted to see a movie and she wanted to see Inception which I’ve already seen but I loved it so a second time wasn’t bad. i noticed a hole in the plot and a few things I didn’t on the 1st time. I am a details person I spend to much time on the technical and animations etc. than the plot. I got off work and went home to watch some big brother and work on a server project. Plus I surfed the net for a few hours. Oh yea I forgot after the movie I had to run to COX Radio to drop off a radio to John then to FOX23 to get some emmy nominations and run them by my station. There I forgot that hahahah. I was in bed by 6pm.

So, after my last post I had a few friends contact me looking for info and as I said I can’t really give anyone details because I don’t even understand them. Last week I went on a movie rampage and watched Eclipse, Toy Story 3, Despicable Me, Grown Ups and Inception. I had 50% coupons for the theater and their before noon ticket prices are $4.oo.  I looked at it like a 2hr get away from my mind. Plus it’s been feeling like its over 105 each day and the A/C at the house isn’t the best in the humidity. I’ve been talking to the chick off the internet but not giving her as much attention as I think she wants. She is interesting and seems to have sex on the mind which makes me wonder what she really wants. As per my mood I’ve had more good days than bad. I think it seriously has to do with my adderall and I am changing that in a few days. I think that maybe I got a bad batch? This would explain the sudden mood change and other issues. Only 1 way to find out 😉  I want to go see the sorcerer’s apprentice today and The Last Air Bender tomorrow. On the Braces front my upper arch is all nice and straight and lower arch is coming along slowly but have seen changes. I guess I shouldn’t expect the project to go so fast 😉 considering it is a 2 year project.

I returned to work on Monday to catch-up on the previous weeks work and stuff I didn’t do on vacation. I only got 1 call from work while on vacation so that was nice.  There are a few things that went on including meeting a chick from the interwebs that was a rather interesting experience.

But for some reason in the last 6 days something has happened. I don’t know how to explain it other than its not good. My mood is all over the place and I feel as if I’m dead. I guess rather than saying all over the place as in I really don’t have a mood I normaly have some sort of a mood be happy or disconnected. I don’t know whats up and I’ve been racking my brain to figure it out. I would talk thru it with friends if I knew what to talk about. I’m a blank slate only surviving but not thriving like I was just 20 days ago. I don’t know if my meds are suddenly out of wack. I had several good days while on vacation but a few bad days. I don’t like where this mood is taking me and I don’t know how to stop it. I’ve decided if it doesn’t clear up by the weeks end I’m going to make an appt. with my doc and see what can be done. To say I’m scared and worried is a point but I’m more worried of me losing who I’ve fought to be over the last year and half. *shrug* I wish I could crank out an entire rant about how vacation sucked and I hate life but thats not it nor is it applicable to this mood. I should be talking about my run-in with a neighbor that accused me of stealing his fucking lawnmower and me having to call the cops or again the girl I met that is interesting but I just can’t. The thoughts are there but the action of putting them to the keyboard is not. I guess I did have a “rant” but thats all I know to do today.

Ok so I was told “a 12yrld can do it without pain pills and alcohol” well from all the research I’ve found shows adults go thru twice as much pain because of the movement needed and the deeply rooted gums and teeth. I’m an adult and I also have more access than a 12yrld =) I have access to lortabs and jagermister. I had thought about mixing the 2 for a nice pain med however I’ve got the weakest of lortabs and not a ton of Jager. I can just say it hurts to bite even if I had a bite it would hurt.  Thanks thats all

Soooo Lets pile a few days into 1 post shall we?

Thursday at 9:35 I had project part 2 done and let me tell you OUCH! It went just like the first install with the exception of nasty cotton wads shoved between my cheek and gums. They placed all the brackets and changed out my top wire and replaced it with a stronger wire. I had a hamburger, fries and chocolate shake for my last meal. I had to get “bumpers” or little rubber things on a few of my lower brackets because my top teeth were hitting them. I walked out of there a new man. A man that couldn’t even chew gum without hitting teeth and brackets. I’m serious my bite was wonderful when i went in and when i left I had NO.. zero.. zilch for a bite. I swear it was so bad I couln’t chew a cherry. I started a softer food diet or eating what I can cut into small enough pieces to swallow whole. The next few days I wound that I have a area on my left side i can grind food w/o hitting a “bumper” and the thing with the bumpers is I can bite thru them if I try and hit metal which would mean I could break a tooth easily.  I am posting this on Tuesday and my bite is still 90% off I have areas I can chew. Anyway back to Thursday.. I went home after the install and got really bored. i played online and goofed off most of the day and went to bed at 10pm. *shock* and slept until 10a on Friday *cue the angels*. Friday was boring because all I did was watch soccer and TV. I went to bed about 9pm on Friday night. Saturday I drove around and scoped out some apartments that I can afford if I need. Saturday I did nothing but watch TV and read a book was in bed by 10p. Sunday I skipped church BUT I caught the podcast. I had tickets to goto the Drillers game with fireworks or to goto the lake and fight the drunks on my way home. I chose neither. I called a friend and we went and sat about the middle and when 1 display stopped about 10min later another started. It was fun because there were no crowds to fight or parking to find. Monday I finished my book and relaxed. I swung by walmart and got some supplies and snack food which I still can’t eat w/o pain. Was in bed by say 10:30. Tuesday I woke up damn early and couldn’t go back to sleep so I found a new book to read and started it when i got bored with it I started reading the 2008 CIA stats book. Its weird all the stuff thats published in there about all the countries and even or allies. I could care less about infant mortality rates and the tons of grain they export. Needless to say I stopped readying it quickly. I got a call today from a old friend I’ve touched base with a few months ago and he showed interst in my truck and I hadn’t thought much of it. I want about 1k for it and have talked to neighbors about selling it to her or Steve. I will just use the money to buy a new mac probably. I went out and started it up and got it to an idle and quickly affirmed my thought that the battery is indeed dead as a doornail. I went to the zoo and read some on a new book and for the 1st time wondered if the $9.99 of the price of a book I can’t hold and read later is worth it. I love reading on the ipad but it just seems worthless to download a book and not be able to share it. I never read books and throw them away. I let my mom or someone else read them. This is a issue I’d not thought of. Must be nice for the authors and the environment the 1 book not printed and the tree saved. Ok I’m done with playing catchup.