So alone

I’m paralyzed, I can barely function. I’m lucky to get up to pee. I’ve not showered in a week. Nobody has noticed I fell of the digital globe. I’m afraid to ask for help as I don’t want to burden anyone. I have no A/C and it’s averaging 95 degrees inside. I lay under a fan in a pool of sweat. I can’t wear clothing because I soak them and I can’t reward them because the salt has dried and shirts and boxers are crystallized from sweat. I have to work tomorrow. My sleep schedule is non existent. I have a reason to check out and it spooks me I’m looking at my options. Next logical step is to plan my exit. That step I’ve not stepped on yet. Still wishing someone would notice I’m gone.